What to say? I don't really know. I feel that the past 2 months have been a blur. I make it. I get through the days. Lately there have been more good days than bad.
I wonder what my pregnancy would have been like at this point. I would be 26 weeks now. I would be able to feel my sweet Ben's kicks. I would give anything to feel those kicks and movements. I would give anything to feel the discomforts of pregnancy...the frequent potty breaks, the expanding belly, the aches and pains. I would give anything for it.
I know that life has to go on. I know that I have many jobs- as a Mommy, a wife, a professional, etc. I know that each and every day I have to get up and do those jobs.
But I also know that I have a missing piece of me right now. There is a void that I can't explain. There is a void that is there every single day.
I know that each and every day gets better. I know that there are some days that are worse than others. I know that Ben is with me every second of everyday.
He smiles down on me, and continues to teach me lessons that I will forever cherish. I again challenge you to look at the simple things in life. Make someone's day. Put a smile on a face. And above all of that...love hard!
